Posted in Letters to Muz
Feb 24th, 2010 by Greg England
It’s been a while since I’ve written … but that doesn’t mean I’ve not thought about you during the lapse. There have been many times I would love to have called and run some things by you … get your perspective … just hear you tell me things are going to work out. You always believed that with all your heart. I tend to doubt with all my heart!
But we’ve had different life experiences and maybe therein lies the difference in and depth of faith. It was only after your death when we started sharing stories among ourselves did I realize just how much you endured over the years. No wonder your faith was so strong and your eyes so fixed on Jesus.
Your daughter is becoming an artist (to add to her many talents). She recently sent me a picture of “The Bear” that she did freehand. I might have done as well had it been paint-by-numbers, but then I don’t remember any of those things that I did very well. You would be very proud of her ever-developing walk of faith. She sounds more like you these days, which is good. For the most part!
The children continue to entertain us. Lilly is the one to watch as she has this determination to live life on her terms. She crawled over to the oven last week where Heather had some cookies baking in the oven and stuck her tongue between the oven door and the oven!
You remember the kind of “fits” Tara could throw, right? So much that we now refer to “Tara fits” in our family. The other day Janice called me into the family room at Josh and Heather’s to witness Lilly having a “Tara fit” on the floor. Quite impressive, to say the least, for a 14-month-old. She did another one last night, but to her credit, she was tired and sleepy. We have a vibrator thingamajiggy that you sit on and it massages your back. Lilly wanted the control to it and pitched a fit when the control would not come loose from the unit.
Logan is becoming a “Grindaddy’s boy.” If I’m around and he’s not pre-occupied with eating, he wants to be in my arms and will grunt his way into my arms. No complaint from my end, though it does make it somewhat difficult to help Josh do things around the house with Logan in my arms. He always knows when we leave with Jackson that something’s not right. So we finally took him out by himself the other day and I honestly think he knew what was going on and how he’d just pulled one over on his siblings.
Jackson was with Josh the other day at Lowe’s when the cashier asked Josh, “Is that your son?” Josh replied, “One of them.” Before she could say anything else, Jackson volunteered, “Hi, I’m Jackson.” On the other hand, he can put Josh to shame with how shy he can be. Just never know.
He has figured out not only how to send text “messages” on iPhones, but he recognizes his favorite people’s text settings. He knows how to send them to Jan, Heather, Brittany (Heather’s sister), Jessica, myself, and others. Pam (Jan’s sister) got a series of text “messages” consisting of random letters that had her so concerned, she called Janice to see if everything were okay. Sometimes I get texts from Jackson as fast as every 10 seconds or so.
His latest thing was to use a black magic marker to paint his fingernails. I guess it could have been worse … such as walls and furniture, or Logan or Lilly. Never a dull moment around those children.
Dave (our preacher) asked if I would be a part of a monthly series in July where one of four men from the church preach on each Sunday of that month. My Sunday is the third one, and I’m not only honored to be asked, but quite excited about actually speaking at Chorus Church. My topic is on “Fellowship.” Still debating just how much to share about the concept of “fellowship” in which we grew up. But I have a while to work out the sermon.
Had a nice visit from Don and Leota last week … don’t remember when we last saw them, but we thoroughly enjoyed a couple of hours together as they are both quite fun to be around (in their individually unique ways).
Otherwise, things are about the same. We have busy times and we have incredibly slow times. Just hope the busy times will be enough to pull us through the slow times, economically. You lived through worse times than what we’re enduring, but with this present administration in D.C., who’s to say we’re not heading into another depression in this country.
I think a lot about what it would be like to be homeless. But that’s about all the hope my level of faith can produce at times! And that’s why I’d love to talk with you. Sometimes you just want to talk with someone who has been down your path.
Much love . . .
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Those grandbabies are going to keep you young!
, but nothing stays the same. The economy will change, the administration will change (it can always be worse), and even the Great Depression didn’t last forever. I continue to pray for you, your family, and the business. Hang in there. You are loved.
Excited that you are going to be in a pulpit again. I know you’ll have much to say that will be uplifting about fellowship. I will pray that, if you decide to talk about fellowship as in the fellowship many of us grew up in, you will reach back and find some good memories and stuff to share. No one has the skinny on fellowship, so we could all use some uplifting!
I wouldn’t even come close to the wisdom your Muz could impart to you. Matter of fact, I don’t have ANY wisdom to impart
I think you just have….”talked with her”. If you are still and quiet you will hear her answer…
Your sister is very talented…and chooses great subjects!!
You know I am a sucker for the gbaby stories!
Morning, Greg – What’s left of it here.
My word for the day here is “enjoy” and I certainly enjoyed reading your latest letter to Muz. I too wish you still had her around to consult with and talk with. I’m already really beginning to feel “a” loss with my own mom, who is very much alive, but at 88 falling deeper and deeper all the time into short term memory lapses. She is not the same person she was even a year ago and I am deeply troubled in my heart about her.
Your grandkids are as cute as ever! I always enjoy hearing about them, too, and seeing photos (& video) of them occasionally.
As for your level of faith/doubt – I don’t think about us being homeless too often, but certainly do once in a while. I DO think about homeless people a lot and especially so through this hard winter this country has been/is experiencing. Can’t even begin to imagine, though, I don’t think.
Although, I see some mighty down and out people around here ALL the time. Even (or maybe especially) here in the deep south so many, many people really have nothing. I got to talking with an elderly lady sitting in Walgreens yesterday waiting to get our Rxs and she was saying how she hadn’t been able to get warm. She said she had looked at electric blankets to get one for her bed, but that it was $37, which seemed an exceedingly large amount of money to her.j
I felt like writing her a check for $40 and giving it to her, or at least give her what cash I had. She was feeling bad – down in her back, she said – and had just been to a doctor and I was thinking that she is probably on Medicare alone, which sure doesn’t cover much these days, with less being covered all the time (think current admin).
Sorry to go on. Maybe I’m sort of adding a P.S. to Muz from myself here to see what she would have to tell me. (In case you can’t tell, I’m rather “down & out” myself this morning – not feeling well either. And, I’M cold!! Blasted Al Gore!
But, cheers, anyway! And many blessings to each of you!
Dee
Well…I’m glad I’m not the only one that talks to their departed mother. Mine was special with capital letters (as I can tell yours was). She died 16 years ago. I can’t help but think about all of that warm, gooey love that she poured out on me and my children, that will never be known by my grandchildren. I’ve tried to make up for it.
I always love these letters, they just have warmth about them and I know Muz would have loved getting them. I think Muz would love seeing what a great grindaddy you are.
Your sister does indeed have a talent for drawing. I can’t even draw a decent stick person.
My own mother and one of her brothers left for CA Tuesday. They are visiting one of my brothers and s-i-l and will be gone 10 days. I miss her already. We have become so close since we moved her to OK with us. She will be 87 in April and I thank God for each day I have her.